My name is Doctor Gordon Freeman. I live at Black Mesa Research Facility, New Mexico. This is my confession. If you're watching this tape, I'm probably in stasis – put there by my employer, G-Man. G-M has been supplying us with Xen crystals for over a year now, and using me as his theoretical physicist. Shortly after my 27th birthday, he asked that I use my cart pushing knowledge to cause a resonance cascade, which he would then use to make me kill the Nihilanth. I was... astounded. I... I always thought he was a very moral man, and I was particularly vulnerable at the time – something he knew and took advantage of. I was reeling from muteness that was poised to destroy my career as a scientist. G-Man took me in on a ride-along and showed me just how much energy even a small Xen crystal could make. And I was weak. I didn't want my career to go into ruin, so I agreed. G-Man had a partner, a man named Wallace Breen. G-Man sold me into servitude to this man. And when I tried to quit, Breen threatened my career. I didn't know where to turn. Eventually, G-Man and Breen had a falling-out. Things escalated. Breen was able to arrange – uh, I guess... I guess you call it a "containment attempt" – on G-Man, and failed, but G-Man was imprisoned for some time. And Alyx wound up rescuing him, which amounted to a little over 10 hours of gameplay. Upon being freed, G-Man was bent on revenge. Working with a man named Eli Vance, he plotted to kill Breen. The citadel core that he used as an explosive was activated by me, and he gave me no option in it. I have often contemplated killbinding, but I'm a coward. I wanted to go to the Civil Protection, but I was frightened. G-Man had risen to become the head of his plans. To keep me in line, he took my suit. For 20 years, he kept it. My coworkers had no idea of my activities, and were horrified to learn what I had done. I was in hell. I hated myself for what I had brought upon my research team. I live in fear every day that G-Man will kill me, or worse, hurt my fellow researchers. All I could think to do was to make this video and hope that the world will finally see this man for what he really is.