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Hello, I have been given a chance to plead my case for quite possibly the last time. I implore everyone to drop any biases and explore my reformed behavior. I am not KingOfCowards talking to you right now. I am speaking to you as Michael. So, feel free to address me as such.
I want to begin this by stating all the things I have done wrong. Yes, I have stirred up controversy and garnered a bad reputation for myself. Yes, I did treat another member poorly. All of this evidence was previously weighed and I was unbanned after a ban of moderate length. Following this unban, I shamefully took advantage of Mendel's good faith in me and began to create bait posts with the intention of stirring up trouble. All of this resulted in a lengthy of argument that resulted in me declaring myself banned before staff re-perma'd me for violating the conditions of my ban.
I'm not a great person. I have flaws just like anyone else. Now, please, I implore you that none of these flaws are harmful ones that many people have accused me of. I am not going to address these because of their blatant mistruths.
But I want to come around and talk about what has happened right now. I've been playing on the server for a bit with a handful of staff knowing about it. They observed that if I am not being treated like a monster then I will not act in such a manner. I won't lash out, bait, or cause trouble. I have been playing alongside many of you that do not like me and have begun to form mutual acquaintanceships with you. Many of you thought the signs that I was among you would be obvious - that somehow I would only want to write obscene things, or do constant torture roleplay. No, I have generated many interesting interactions that people enjoyed. Maybe in hindsight you will say "Well I could see KoC doing that" but in the moment many people enjoyed roleplaying with me because their was no bias.
Furthermore, being in the discord under the name "Upside" has shown me a new side to all of you. I've come to understand that many of my problems were self-generated and NOT the fault of the community. We are able to discuss things like normal and make jokes. Sure, there's still toxic members, but I've come to see several of you as fun loving people (albeit a bit crass).
I implore everyone to look at what THIS person has done. Not KoC but Michael. Without the expectation to be KoC, I've been myself. I have not felt compelled to do anything other than try to help improve this community.
Look, I understand that I have tarnished my name. I've shared a bit too much about myself which has garnered a lot of negative attention, but in the end of the day I am trying to hold on to my favorite video game from the past 10 years. I fucked up and tarnished my reputation where I have become a persona non grata; however, please see that I want to co-exist. I don't want to make fucked up shit. I just want to be normal and our recent shared experiences have shown that.
To the admins who knew I was on the server, I ask you to stand by your decision. I have not let you guys down and abused that privilege like I did before. I have not attempted to troll or bait in any way.
I want to begin this by stating all the things I have done wrong. Yes, I have stirred up controversy and garnered a bad reputation for myself. Yes, I did treat another member poorly. All of this evidence was previously weighed and I was unbanned after a ban of moderate length. Following this unban, I shamefully took advantage of Mendel's good faith in me and began to create bait posts with the intention of stirring up trouble. All of this resulted in a lengthy of argument that resulted in me declaring myself banned before staff re-perma'd me for violating the conditions of my ban.
I'm not a great person. I have flaws just like anyone else. Now, please, I implore you that none of these flaws are harmful ones that many people have accused me of. I am not going to address these because of their blatant mistruths.
But I want to come around and talk about what has happened right now. I've been playing on the server for a bit with a handful of staff knowing about it. They observed that if I am not being treated like a monster then I will not act in such a manner. I won't lash out, bait, or cause trouble. I have been playing alongside many of you that do not like me and have begun to form mutual acquaintanceships with you. Many of you thought the signs that I was among you would be obvious - that somehow I would only want to write obscene things, or do constant torture roleplay. No, I have generated many interesting interactions that people enjoyed. Maybe in hindsight you will say "Well I could see KoC doing that" but in the moment many people enjoyed roleplaying with me because their was no bias.
Furthermore, being in the discord under the name "Upside" has shown me a new side to all of you. I've come to understand that many of my problems were self-generated and NOT the fault of the community. We are able to discuss things like normal and make jokes. Sure, there's still toxic members, but I've come to see several of you as fun loving people (albeit a bit crass).
I implore everyone to look at what THIS person has done. Not KoC but Michael. Without the expectation to be KoC, I've been myself. I have not felt compelled to do anything other than try to help improve this community.
Look, I understand that I have tarnished my name. I've shared a bit too much about myself which has garnered a lot of negative attention, but in the end of the day I am trying to hold on to my favorite video game from the past 10 years. I fucked up and tarnished my reputation where I have become a persona non grata; however, please see that I want to co-exist. I don't want to make fucked up shit. I just want to be normal and our recent shared experiences have shown that.
To the admins who knew I was on the server, I ask you to stand by your decision. I have not let you guys down and abused that privilege like I did before. I have not attempted to troll or bait in any way.
