Sushi082
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General History
"What even is my history anymore? My head's always spinning. It's always so loud and I'm surprised I got this far. Luck? Good graces? Was I just useful? I don't know. I've seen and done things people can only dream about. I've seen the Borderworld, I've known their secrets. I've sat in the void itself and had dinner with myself and here I am at the end of it all with a rifle in my lap, writing this shit out on a scrap of paper. This is fucked."
"A soldier, an informant, a doctor and a surgeon, a tool for their machines, a wannabe lover. Can't even do most of those right. Not even sure why I'm writing this all down- maybe it'll end up being found and someone can laugh at it as they kick my corpse into the pile to be burned. Or maybe before someone that acts like they care puts me in the Earth."
"My name was Michael Yards. With god awful codenames names such as Nobody, Inch, Metric and Compañero. Feel free to rip this paper up when you're done with it. At least I'll be in someone's mind for a few more minutes."
General Relationships
Stephanie Roberts
."I don't know what to think, you're dead. And in one of the more fucked up ways I've heard in a bit. My own compass is so screwed- I hate you for hurting certain people. But also I pity that you couldn't be helped, that you couldn't get your happy ending."
"After everything, hope you're resting well."
Emiyo Marcum
"At the end of it all you're not who you were, neither am I. Maybe we can recover if we survive this. Maybe we can have the life we both wanted. I crawled miles to find you, only you. As the voices kept me company there was a single glowing beacon that made my feet shuffle forwards. It's only been a few years...crazy that, right? It's felt like forever. But we made it to the end...and hopefully past it. I doubt it, internally I do. I'm fully preparing myself to bury you. Or to face the afterlife without you. And I hate that."
"I love you, Emiyo. I'm sorry."
Eleanor Marchand
"The embers that sit in my chest still flare when I see your face. A part of me still wants to lash out- but it's because of a pathetic desire to take back some sort of control. You want us to go? You don't realize us at all. I want to go, but she won't. You and I both know that. Worry about me all you want, because I don't. Save your efforts for the people that deserve it. Like her. And whoever else survives."
"I wish you didn't put the knife in my back, I almost miss my close friend."
'Teller of Tales'
"My dear friend. I can only hope you're still alive, still fighting the good fight. I wish you were here. Your wisdom and power will be a boon- maybe we'll find each other afterwards. If we both survive.
"I could've used your wisdom many times, alas I am not a wise man."
Uwe Schulz
"Worked so hard to save me and you go and die on me. It hurts. It really hurts Uwe. You changed so much- you became your own man. You found heart and strength and it made you the best you could be. We'll do our best to do you proud."
"Seeing your growth makes me wonder if I could've became a better man earlier if I wasn't so scared."
'Tzu'
"Old friend, siblings do not have to be blood related which I know. You are the closest thing to family I had- alongside a palm full of others. Are you proud of me? For standing up again and again as the scars grew? That I made it to their fall? We've got more to kill, more to fight. But we'll make it...right?"
"My blood has coated your hands more than most, you carried my life in your claws and ensured it wouldn't slip away...let's hope it doesn't go to waste."
Watima Nakata
"O Brother, Where Art Thou? I don't know. I was told you're dead, maybe you're not. Maybe the wires got crossed- but maybe it's true. If you are dead...I'm so sorry. I failed you. Much like I've failed many others...but I'll carry your spirit on my shoulders as we put down our monsters."
"You made me who I am, as much as I was an asshole to you. Brother by more than just happenstance...I'd say the same blood runs in our veins."
Marcus Cross
"Soldier turned leader turned revolutionary. Yet I'm sorry that I still judge- are you doing this out of convenience? Seeing the writing on the wall? You told me things to make me trust you, but it only made me second guess who you are at times. As does your actions...you're a complicated man, a dangerous one. As am I, I suppose...Still I'll fight at your back, what comes after comes after."
"It's not your fault, I am just a terrible person."
Jeanne Shoshanna Jouhad
"Took me under your wing back in the day, turned the fake me into a soldier. You worked hard to try and save me- but I couldn't just run. I owe you many, many things. And I know you care deeply...it make me wonder why I was so special. I'm a bastard in scarred leather. What was left of the old me lost to the wind. Maybe you could see those scraps in what remained."
"You're loyalty personified. I only wish I could be so decent."
Sophie Beckett
"This one hurt. The devastation that after all this time I couldn't save you, that I couldn't even be there to try...that guilt will lay over the remnants of me until I die. I doubt we'll end up in the same place- but if we do I'll apologize as much as I'm able. I'm so sorry Sophie, you deserved better."
"So strong, for so long. But the cracks widened and they swallowed you whole- much like they could me."
Amelie Solene
"My little sister in all but blood, one of two that keep me going. I wish I could give you the world you deserve- one full of laughs and gifts and silly little moments. But I'm not that man anymore. I don't know what I am...and I think you can see it. Or maybe I'm just making assumptions. Just a little further...just...a little...further."
"Innocence personified, at the very least before it all went to hell. Je t'aime ma sœur."
Sophie Purnell
"I miss you, miss who you were before becoming a soldier. Before dying. Another failure it feels like- much like your naming sister. I worked so hard to help you because you meant something. And now you're gone...at least you're getting the rest you wanted, hopefully wherever you are you're happy."
"A lesson that healing doesn't always mean progress. And I should have recognized that...I'm sorry."
The rest of you.
"So many names, so many faces have carved their nooks on my journey. I hate you, I respected you, I liked you. But at the end of it all none of you mattered. I had to make my way with the people I care about. And most of you simply made that difficult. Some of you I wished to kill, some of you I wished I could be better friends to."
"So thank you, fuck you and I wish you well in whatever our world becomes. In whatever world we end up in when we die. I won't miss you. Goodbye."
"What even is my history anymore? My head's always spinning. It's always so loud and I'm surprised I got this far. Luck? Good graces? Was I just useful? I don't know. I've seen and done things people can only dream about. I've seen the Borderworld, I've known their secrets. I've sat in the void itself and had dinner with myself and here I am at the end of it all with a rifle in my lap, writing this shit out on a scrap of paper. This is fucked."
"A soldier, an informant, a doctor and a surgeon, a tool for their machines, a wannabe lover. Can't even do most of those right. Not even sure why I'm writing this all down- maybe it'll end up being found and someone can laugh at it as they kick my corpse into the pile to be burned. Or maybe before someone that acts like they care puts me in the Earth."
"My name was Michael Yards. With god awful codenames names such as Nobody, Inch, Metric and Compañero. Feel free to rip this paper up when you're done with it. At least I'll be in someone's mind for a few more minutes."
General Relationships
Stephanie Roberts
."I don't know what to think, you're dead. And in one of the more fucked up ways I've heard in a bit. My own compass is so screwed- I hate you for hurting certain people. But also I pity that you couldn't be helped, that you couldn't get your happy ending."
"After everything, hope you're resting well."
Emiyo Marcum
"At the end of it all you're not who you were, neither am I. Maybe we can recover if we survive this. Maybe we can have the life we both wanted. I crawled miles to find you, only you. As the voices kept me company there was a single glowing beacon that made my feet shuffle forwards. It's only been a few years...crazy that, right? It's felt like forever. But we made it to the end...and hopefully past it. I doubt it, internally I do. I'm fully preparing myself to bury you. Or to face the afterlife without you. And I hate that."
"I love you, Emiyo. I'm sorry."
Eleanor Marchand
"The embers that sit in my chest still flare when I see your face. A part of me still wants to lash out- but it's because of a pathetic desire to take back some sort of control. You want us to go? You don't realize us at all. I want to go, but she won't. You and I both know that. Worry about me all you want, because I don't. Save your efforts for the people that deserve it. Like her. And whoever else survives."
"I wish you didn't put the knife in my back, I almost miss my close friend."
'Teller of Tales'
"My dear friend. I can only hope you're still alive, still fighting the good fight. I wish you were here. Your wisdom and power will be a boon- maybe we'll find each other afterwards. If we both survive.
"I could've used your wisdom many times, alas I am not a wise man."
Uwe Schulz
"Worked so hard to save me and you go and die on me. It hurts. It really hurts Uwe. You changed so much- you became your own man. You found heart and strength and it made you the best you could be. We'll do our best to do you proud."
"Seeing your growth makes me wonder if I could've became a better man earlier if I wasn't so scared."
'Tzu'
"Old friend, siblings do not have to be blood related which I know. You are the closest thing to family I had- alongside a palm full of others. Are you proud of me? For standing up again and again as the scars grew? That I made it to their fall? We've got more to kill, more to fight. But we'll make it...right?"
"My blood has coated your hands more than most, you carried my life in your claws and ensured it wouldn't slip away...let's hope it doesn't go to waste."
Watima Nakata
"O Brother, Where Art Thou? I don't know. I was told you're dead, maybe you're not. Maybe the wires got crossed- but maybe it's true. If you are dead...I'm so sorry. I failed you. Much like I've failed many others...but I'll carry your spirit on my shoulders as we put down our monsters."
"You made me who I am, as much as I was an asshole to you. Brother by more than just happenstance...I'd say the same blood runs in our veins."
Marcus Cross
"Soldier turned leader turned revolutionary. Yet I'm sorry that I still judge- are you doing this out of convenience? Seeing the writing on the wall? You told me things to make me trust you, but it only made me second guess who you are at times. As does your actions...you're a complicated man, a dangerous one. As am I, I suppose...Still I'll fight at your back, what comes after comes after."
"It's not your fault, I am just a terrible person."
Jeanne Shoshanna Jouhad
"Took me under your wing back in the day, turned the fake me into a soldier. You worked hard to try and save me- but I couldn't just run. I owe you many, many things. And I know you care deeply...it make me wonder why I was so special. I'm a bastard in scarred leather. What was left of the old me lost to the wind. Maybe you could see those scraps in what remained."
"You're loyalty personified. I only wish I could be so decent."
Sophie Beckett
"This one hurt. The devastation that after all this time I couldn't save you, that I couldn't even be there to try...that guilt will lay over the remnants of me until I die. I doubt we'll end up in the same place- but if we do I'll apologize as much as I'm able. I'm so sorry Sophie, you deserved better."
"So strong, for so long. But the cracks widened and they swallowed you whole- much like they could me."
Amelie Solene
"My little sister in all but blood, one of two that keep me going. I wish I could give you the world you deserve- one full of laughs and gifts and silly little moments. But I'm not that man anymore. I don't know what I am...and I think you can see it. Or maybe I'm just making assumptions. Just a little further...just...a little...further."
"Innocence personified, at the very least before it all went to hell. Je t'aime ma sœur."
Sophie Purnell
"I miss you, miss who you were before becoming a soldier. Before dying. Another failure it feels like- much like your naming sister. I worked so hard to help you because you meant something. And now you're gone...at least you're getting the rest you wanted, hopefully wherever you are you're happy."
"A lesson that healing doesn't always mean progress. And I should have recognized that...I'm sorry."
The rest of you.
"So many names, so many faces have carved their nooks on my journey. I hate you, I respected you, I liked you. But at the end of it all none of you mattered. I had to make my way with the people I care about. And most of you simply made that difficult. Some of you I wished to kill, some of you I wished I could be better friends to."
"So thank you, fuck you and I wish you well in whatever our world becomes. In whatever world we end up in when we die. I won't miss you. Goodbye."
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