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Name of the Admin you were banned by: Imperator Rad-X approved the ban.
How long is the ban for?: Permanent
The reason you were banned?: Exceeded discord warnings. My toxicity and edginess.
Why do you wish to be unbanned?: I was toxic and edgy. I made myself to be the victim in my last appeal, and I shifted blames to others. I greatly regret my actions and I don't want those to be reflective of who I was in the community, and I want to amend and do better. I did fucked up shit, all of which is documented in my former appeal, and my ban was rightfully deserved by Rad-X and others. I'm not justifying any of my actions, only going to show that I want to change, I did change, and I don't want to leave things as bitter as they are.
Do you have any picture or video evidence to support your reason?:
It is hard to write this appeal for me, as I cannot imagine how I can properly convey the number of feelings or shame I have writing this. I don’t intend on justifying my actions, nor do I intend on shifting the blame onto people other than myself. My former appeal attempt when unresolved because I hadn't the courage to approach Rad-X at the time in DMS, and I barely dare to do so now months later.
I’ve spoken to Rad-X in an attempt for closure and self-betterment a few days ago, as I had been encouraged by my friend Pawlu to do so, as I felt bitter and disgusted at my actions after I got banned and didn’t value bother trying to approach Rad-X to properly appeal and apologize earlier because I valued myself very low after realizing my actions and felt it be better for me to simply leave. I was also afraid of rejection, so I felt discouraged and anxious in doing anything which could resolve my appeal, for better or worse.
I do not agree with my former appeal, and I acknowledge that it only served to shift blame and accountability onto others as if I were at the center of a conspiracy. I sincerely apologize to those I’ve affected and harmed most in the process of this, that being Ghostspookus, Candyexin(?), Swagile, as well as anyone else I could've wronged. I chose not to right the wrongs then and ask for forgiveness, and I apologize for that, but I am attempting to do so now. I feel very remorseful for my toxicity given time to think about it.
It truly shames me that those were the cause and effects of my actions back then, and are representative of me now in the community to this day. I am a very toxic and prideful person, and this has not been the first time I have been in trouble due to my toxicity. I recognize my toxicity to be a vital flaw of my character, and out of principle, I sought to limit myself from platforms that may encourage that toxic behaviour, which is why I also took a break from both steam & discord.
I spoke to Rad-X and attempted to make amends, and though I promised myself that I would go in with no expectations and only for closure, I still harboured hopes that I may be able to engage in the server once more. Though Rad-X stated that I’d be unbanned, and in truth, I partially was, it was decided upon that I would appeal for my in-game ban. I am not interested in discord which served as a platform for my toxicity, nor am I interested in engaging with the wider community to allow that toxicity to fester. I truly don't want to ruin any future chances I have in the community.
I only want to play the server and engage with my friends. I am sorry for those I wronged, and if I can’t do right by them, then I can only do right by others.
Apologies if this seemed artificial or mechanical. Truth be told, I am very anxious writing this, and I am trying to improve my character. I believe my emotions were better conveyed to Rad-X than in this writing.
Were there any witnesses who can help in this appeal?: (List the steam and/or character names of them or tag them) @Pawlu @Imperator RAD-X @ghostuspokus @swagile @Jinx
If this is denied, I don't want it to show that I never did make an effort to improve. I truly did.
I had originally intended to appeal my ban on my birthday a month ago, as it held personal significance to me and made me feel that either I have changed or that I was going to, but came later as I didn't want to burden myself then and especially did not want to burden others in the process.
Name of the Admin you were banned by: Imperator Rad-X approved the ban.
How long is the ban for?: Permanent
The reason you were banned?: Exceeded discord warnings. My toxicity and edginess.
Why do you wish to be unbanned?: I was toxic and edgy. I made myself to be the victim in my last appeal, and I shifted blames to others. I greatly regret my actions and I don't want those to be reflective of who I was in the community, and I want to amend and do better. I did fucked up shit, all of which is documented in my former appeal, and my ban was rightfully deserved by Rad-X and others. I'm not justifying any of my actions, only going to show that I want to change, I did change, and I don't want to leave things as bitter as they are.
Do you have any picture or video evidence to support your reason?:
It is hard to write this appeal for me, as I cannot imagine how I can properly convey the number of feelings or shame I have writing this. I don’t intend on justifying my actions, nor do I intend on shifting the blame onto people other than myself. My former appeal attempt when unresolved because I hadn't the courage to approach Rad-X at the time in DMS, and I barely dare to do so now months later.
I’ve spoken to Rad-X in an attempt for closure and self-betterment a few days ago, as I had been encouraged by my friend Pawlu to do so, as I felt bitter and disgusted at my actions after I got banned and didn’t value bother trying to approach Rad-X to properly appeal and apologize earlier because I valued myself very low after realizing my actions and felt it be better for me to simply leave. I was also afraid of rejection, so I felt discouraged and anxious in doing anything which could resolve my appeal, for better or worse.
I do not agree with my former appeal, and I acknowledge that it only served to shift blame and accountability onto others as if I were at the center of a conspiracy. I sincerely apologize to those I’ve affected and harmed most in the process of this, that being Ghostspookus, Candyexin(?), Swagile, as well as anyone else I could've wronged. I chose not to right the wrongs then and ask for forgiveness, and I apologize for that, but I am attempting to do so now. I feel very remorseful for my toxicity given time to think about it.
It truly shames me that those were the cause and effects of my actions back then, and are representative of me now in the community to this day. I am a very toxic and prideful person, and this has not been the first time I have been in trouble due to my toxicity. I recognize my toxicity to be a vital flaw of my character, and out of principle, I sought to limit myself from platforms that may encourage that toxic behaviour, which is why I also took a break from both steam & discord.
I spoke to Rad-X and attempted to make amends, and though I promised myself that I would go in with no expectations and only for closure, I still harboured hopes that I may be able to engage in the server once more. Though Rad-X stated that I’d be unbanned, and in truth, I partially was, it was decided upon that I would appeal for my in-game ban. I am not interested in discord which served as a platform for my toxicity, nor am I interested in engaging with the wider community to allow that toxicity to fester. I truly don't want to ruin any future chances I have in the community.
I only want to play the server and engage with my friends. I am sorry for those I wronged, and if I can’t do right by them, then I can only do right by others.
Apologies if this seemed artificial or mechanical. Truth be told, I am very anxious writing this, and I am trying to improve my character. I believe my emotions were better conveyed to Rad-X than in this writing.
Were there any witnesses who can help in this appeal?: (List the steam and/or character names of them or tag them) @Pawlu @Imperator RAD-X @ghostuspokus @swagile @Jinx
If this is denied, I don't want it to show that I never did make an effort to improve. I truly did.
I had originally intended to appeal my ban on my birthday a month ago, as it held personal significance to me and made me feel that either I have changed or that I was going to, but came later as I didn't want to burden myself then and especially did not want to burden others in the process.
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