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ALL VIEWS EXPRESSED IN THIS APPEAL BELONG TO SAINT JIUB AND DO NOT NECESSARILY REFLECT MY OWN. THIS IS POSTED ON HIS BEHALF.
Steam Name: Saint Jiub
SteamID: 76561198892055179
Name of the Admin you were banned by: Neonity
How long is the ban for?: Perma/Community
The reason you were banned?: Continued Harassment, transphobia, racism, misogyny, intentionally provoking people, it states I was given multiple warnings but not for what, I have the warnings from discord but not from in game.
Why do you wish to be unbanned?: Over the time I have been banned I have taken it upon myself to change as a person, as buffer and fake as this must seem I truly have decided to change how I act and how I respond to certain things, such as petty insults and general jabs at my character over the internet (character as in myself not an in game character). I did this as games did not seem as fun anymore as all it was was, logging on, talking shit and stomping on people or getting stomped on albeit Willard had its hand in this change it was not for the same reason, I did not stop enjoying Willard because of the shit talking, I became bored of Willard due to general burnout and a simple dislike for the direction the server was heading in, however I understand that this is no excuse for the way I acted and I am in no way trying to justify my actions and I do accept what I did in the heat of the moment as something wrong.
I will now begin tackling all the reasons as to why I was banned, to start I will tackle the forum bans, DrPepper10 apologist: This can be explained as a simple misunderstanding, I used this in tandem with "Begotten fearing" in my 'make the server better' post or whatever it was called, I used irony to highlight a discrepancy in the mind of not just Willard players but gmod rpers/General players in general as, people hate DrPepper10 but they believe everything that he said about begotten giving it a bad name, that was it really. Complete troll and no intention of being here other than try to annoy people: I wouldn't say this is entirely true however I will admit some of my opinions and views on the server were rather controversial and I can see why I was banned for that reason and why people may have thought I was being annoying, I can understand that my opinions and memes that I had posted (Please DM me if I need to link it), my opinions have changed and I do think the server is in a better place now from what I have heard that is. Now moving onto the server bans.
Continued Harassment: I somewhat know who this was against, I may need reminded however, I think while what I did was continued I feel the harassment part is somewhat void as I was mainly responding for the most part to being told to kill my self, however I will admit that I did continue it to the main discord and I will also admit looking back at it now it was well out of line and I should have stopped when I was told, I did not however.
Transphobia: I don't really know what I said that was transphobic, I would like someone to give me their perspective so that I may judge it fairly and see if what I did was truly out of line, idk however, I feel I have changed quite a bit and can probably look at this situation now and see how what I said is transphobic, however I still do not agree with transitioning but I do agree with the rights to someone receiving respect and the choice to do whatever they want with their body, this does mean I will respect pronouns provided a person uses them.
Misogyny: I remember exactly how this went down, I know I did go way out of line with the sexist comments and I somewhat cringe looking back on them however for the most part I will not lie, my humour has stayed mostly the same, it has changed in some places though.
Racism: here I wont lie idk what I said that was racist? Correct me if I am wrong but is this in reference to typing in gang talk? Personally I wouldn't consider this as racism I can understand how it was viewed as racist but quite frankly I have seen and heard both white and black, male and female people speak like this, I think it was abundantly clear that this was a joke and I still look back on the comment made in the meme as quite funny, I am sorry if this is offensive to those who got caught in the crossfire of my jokes however. Intentionally trying to provoke people: I accept this fully, I was 100% trying to provoke people as I found it funny, I cannot and have no defence for this however I feel I have strayed away from this humour as I feel it is damaging to my personality and mental, I still find it funny and relapse every so often but I try my best not too, I know it looks stupid to talk about it like an addiction but I will stand firm and say jokes like these ruined me, they made life hellish and destroyed my mind, I had amazing times with these jokes and I would try and recreate them, all that would happen is I would make other people upset and feel like shit after, I did this a lot and on my 17th I realised I have to stop, I will only make jokes like these if I feel like someone in the opposition has started on me, even still I will try and hold off, sorry if this looks corny but quite frankly its the truth.
Countless warnings + refused to believe I did anything wrong: I will take the warnings 100% on the chin, the admins were very generous when it came to giving me warnings and I as much as I would like to I cannot think or say anything more than thank you for giving me so many chances, I feel looking back on some of the warnings I got in the discord I don't deserve the amount of chances I got, the 'refused to believe I did anything wrong' part, I feel this is a perfect example for me to look back and to have these questions asked to me in my current state, I feel I have changed quite a bit and that I can give much better answers, however I cannot be so sure that my opinions will have changed, depending on what I did wrong. if you wish to re-ask me these questions my @ is Saint Jiub#1191, my profile picture is Dr K from half life.
I believe this all I was banned for, to end this appeal I must state my apologies for how I acted, I know that simply saying "sorry" doesn't fix the damage I caused however I would just like to say now as I feel this may be the last time I get to say this, while I did shit talk you in the moment, after the moment and not even to the faces of some of the admins, I just want to say god bless you all and thank you for reading this and putting up with me during my time on the server. During the process of writing this it has come to my attention that people have talked and posted about my ban both on Willard and one case on another server, I did not ask for these actions to be carried out however it does make me somewhat happy that people cared about my presence on the server, as much as I would like to lie and say that I 'didn't like their actions' I simply cannot, my blessings go out to those people as well, however I do not think they should have acted out against the server(s) due to my ban.
Onto why I believe I should be unbanned: I feel that my absence from the server has given me time to improve on my person and plenty of time to reflect on my actions that got me banned from the server, I feel there are some things that I must clear up, I do not know if they are related to the ban or not but I feel I must touch on them anyway as to clear up any misconceptions. "OTA cannot be women as it proves extra work for the combine", this was a statement that I had made in a debate with Neonity, Alessio and William. I will clear up my point, I felt that an intergalactic empire wouldn't care whether a woman could become strong as in reality it would take more resources to make said woman stronger and would instead opt for a man as that would be cheaper, however now I have a changed outlook on that as it is a fictional universe with aliens that listen to wheezer and know space magic, I look back on that and see it as stupid however I imagine that I enjoyed the debate in the moment no matter the morality issues hence why I pressured on.
Now onto the "If you tell a man who doesn't fear ghosts his house is haunted" argument. This was a debate focused on the actions of community member "Fungle Bungle" and his stance on LGBTQ+ community and the jokes that he made where he hinted or stated that those who are within LGBTQ+ would go to hell? I do not really remember the situation clearly, so do not take this at face value. I made the argument that telling someone who does not believe in heaven and hell etc. is essentially the same as telling someone who isn't afraid of ghosts that their house is haunted. I still stand by this as even up until now I have had others tell me that that is a good analogy and those who oppose it have not been able to prove me otherwise and make me think it is as bad an analogy as people say.
I do not know of anymore situations, if you wish to query me on a situation that you felt wronged you or annoyed you, even if this appeal is denied please do dm me at Saint Jiub#1191 I do not wish to have any bad blood and I hope that those with a problem can have it resolved.
Do you have any picture or video evidence to support your reason?: I don't really have much to support my unban no, I do not know if anyone else has any if they do please DM me at Saint Jiub#1191
Were there any witnesses who can help in this appeal?: I do not know anyone on the server other than my friend. He will most likely be the one posting it and he was probably the only witness that played on the server as well.
p.s. if I have not answered anything correctly or you wish to get further insight as to why I am asking to be unbanned please do chat to me in my DMs for the third time my @ is Saint Jiub#1191. Again thank you for reading.
Steam Name: Saint Jiub
SteamID: 76561198892055179
Name of the Admin you were banned by: Neonity
How long is the ban for?: Perma/Community
The reason you were banned?: Continued Harassment, transphobia, racism, misogyny, intentionally provoking people, it states I was given multiple warnings but not for what, I have the warnings from discord but not from in game.
Why do you wish to be unbanned?: Over the time I have been banned I have taken it upon myself to change as a person, as buffer and fake as this must seem I truly have decided to change how I act and how I respond to certain things, such as petty insults and general jabs at my character over the internet (character as in myself not an in game character). I did this as games did not seem as fun anymore as all it was was, logging on, talking shit and stomping on people or getting stomped on albeit Willard had its hand in this change it was not for the same reason, I did not stop enjoying Willard because of the shit talking, I became bored of Willard due to general burnout and a simple dislike for the direction the server was heading in, however I understand that this is no excuse for the way I acted and I am in no way trying to justify my actions and I do accept what I did in the heat of the moment as something wrong.
I will now begin tackling all the reasons as to why I was banned, to start I will tackle the forum bans, DrPepper10 apologist: This can be explained as a simple misunderstanding, I used this in tandem with "Begotten fearing" in my 'make the server better' post or whatever it was called, I used irony to highlight a discrepancy in the mind of not just Willard players but gmod rpers/General players in general as, people hate DrPepper10 but they believe everything that he said about begotten giving it a bad name, that was it really. Complete troll and no intention of being here other than try to annoy people: I wouldn't say this is entirely true however I will admit some of my opinions and views on the server were rather controversial and I can see why I was banned for that reason and why people may have thought I was being annoying, I can understand that my opinions and memes that I had posted (Please DM me if I need to link it), my opinions have changed and I do think the server is in a better place now from what I have heard that is. Now moving onto the server bans.
Continued Harassment: I somewhat know who this was against, I may need reminded however, I think while what I did was continued I feel the harassment part is somewhat void as I was mainly responding for the most part to being told to kill my self, however I will admit that I did continue it to the main discord and I will also admit looking back at it now it was well out of line and I should have stopped when I was told, I did not however.
Transphobia: I don't really know what I said that was transphobic, I would like someone to give me their perspective so that I may judge it fairly and see if what I did was truly out of line, idk however, I feel I have changed quite a bit and can probably look at this situation now and see how what I said is transphobic, however I still do not agree with transitioning but I do agree with the rights to someone receiving respect and the choice to do whatever they want with their body, this does mean I will respect pronouns provided a person uses them.
Misogyny: I remember exactly how this went down, I know I did go way out of line with the sexist comments and I somewhat cringe looking back on them however for the most part I will not lie, my humour has stayed mostly the same, it has changed in some places though.
Racism: here I wont lie idk what I said that was racist? Correct me if I am wrong but is this in reference to typing in gang talk? Personally I wouldn't consider this as racism I can understand how it was viewed as racist but quite frankly I have seen and heard both white and black, male and female people speak like this, I think it was abundantly clear that this was a joke and I still look back on the comment made in the meme as quite funny, I am sorry if this is offensive to those who got caught in the crossfire of my jokes however. Intentionally trying to provoke people: I accept this fully, I was 100% trying to provoke people as I found it funny, I cannot and have no defence for this however I feel I have strayed away from this humour as I feel it is damaging to my personality and mental, I still find it funny and relapse every so often but I try my best not too, I know it looks stupid to talk about it like an addiction but I will stand firm and say jokes like these ruined me, they made life hellish and destroyed my mind, I had amazing times with these jokes and I would try and recreate them, all that would happen is I would make other people upset and feel like shit after, I did this a lot and on my 17th I realised I have to stop, I will only make jokes like these if I feel like someone in the opposition has started on me, even still I will try and hold off, sorry if this looks corny but quite frankly its the truth.
Countless warnings + refused to believe I did anything wrong: I will take the warnings 100% on the chin, the admins were very generous when it came to giving me warnings and I as much as I would like to I cannot think or say anything more than thank you for giving me so many chances, I feel looking back on some of the warnings I got in the discord I don't deserve the amount of chances I got, the 'refused to believe I did anything wrong' part, I feel this is a perfect example for me to look back and to have these questions asked to me in my current state, I feel I have changed quite a bit and that I can give much better answers, however I cannot be so sure that my opinions will have changed, depending on what I did wrong. if you wish to re-ask me these questions my @ is Saint Jiub#1191, my profile picture is Dr K from half life.
I believe this all I was banned for, to end this appeal I must state my apologies for how I acted, I know that simply saying "sorry" doesn't fix the damage I caused however I would just like to say now as I feel this may be the last time I get to say this, while I did shit talk you in the moment, after the moment and not even to the faces of some of the admins, I just want to say god bless you all and thank you for reading this and putting up with me during my time on the server. During the process of writing this it has come to my attention that people have talked and posted about my ban both on Willard and one case on another server, I did not ask for these actions to be carried out however it does make me somewhat happy that people cared about my presence on the server, as much as I would like to lie and say that I 'didn't like their actions' I simply cannot, my blessings go out to those people as well, however I do not think they should have acted out against the server(s) due to my ban.
Onto why I believe I should be unbanned: I feel that my absence from the server has given me time to improve on my person and plenty of time to reflect on my actions that got me banned from the server, I feel there are some things that I must clear up, I do not know if they are related to the ban or not but I feel I must touch on them anyway as to clear up any misconceptions. "OTA cannot be women as it proves extra work for the combine", this was a statement that I had made in a debate with Neonity, Alessio and William. I will clear up my point, I felt that an intergalactic empire wouldn't care whether a woman could become strong as in reality it would take more resources to make said woman stronger and would instead opt for a man as that would be cheaper, however now I have a changed outlook on that as it is a fictional universe with aliens that listen to wheezer and know space magic, I look back on that and see it as stupid however I imagine that I enjoyed the debate in the moment no matter the morality issues hence why I pressured on.
Now onto the "If you tell a man who doesn't fear ghosts his house is haunted" argument. This was a debate focused on the actions of community member "Fungle Bungle" and his stance on LGBTQ+ community and the jokes that he made where he hinted or stated that those who are within LGBTQ+ would go to hell? I do not really remember the situation clearly, so do not take this at face value. I made the argument that telling someone who does not believe in heaven and hell etc. is essentially the same as telling someone who isn't afraid of ghosts that their house is haunted. I still stand by this as even up until now I have had others tell me that that is a good analogy and those who oppose it have not been able to prove me otherwise and make me think it is as bad an analogy as people say.
I do not know of anymore situations, if you wish to query me on a situation that you felt wronged you or annoyed you, even if this appeal is denied please do dm me at Saint Jiub#1191 I do not wish to have any bad blood and I hope that those with a problem can have it resolved.
Do you have any picture or video evidence to support your reason?: I don't really have much to support my unban no, I do not know if anyone else has any if they do please DM me at Saint Jiub#1191
Were there any witnesses who can help in this appeal?: I do not know anyone on the server other than my friend. He will most likely be the one posting it and he was probably the only witness that played on the server as well.
p.s. if I have not answered anything correctly or you wish to get further insight as to why I am asking to be unbanned please do chat to me in my DMs for the third time my @ is Saint Jiub#1191. Again thank you for reading.
