Tobias' Diary/Handbook (What I've learned along the way, survival guides and tips for myself and others.)

[Kawakun]

My recount of time is lost, I don't even know what day of the week it is anymore. I don't think any of these people do. I'm practically shaken, not just at the fact I've been randomly transported to an interdimensional alien world, but on a personal level, too. I've only met this group and I already feel somewhat attached to their own emotions, I have no clue who this 'Wyatt' person was, yet I share the sorrow. Especially in the presence of these so-called 'Vortigaunt' creatures, I can sense the timeframe of months and months of a long struggle, a long haul, as if they've been watching us these people from afar. Ah, I have to accept the fact I am now one of them, a long hauler of my own, I am now a part of their adventure, no matter how big or small my role is. As I write now, I currently look out at the endless waters, the smell of sea salt lingering into my nostrils, it's somewhat calming to hear the sounds of water splashing up against the body of the ship, especially after having to temporarily live under the command of those robotic alien creatures, however you could describe them. I just feel glad to be alive and finally heading somewhere that... Hopefully isn't going to have hostilities around every corner.

Yet as my stomach begins to grumble and my mouth begins to dry I can't even think about eating or drinking, my appetite levels have hit rock bottom after this. I still feel somewhat seasick, but I'd rather not throw up on-deck, so I might as well just stick by the ocean for now, see if I can get it out of me by facing the source of the problem, eh? Now in terms of interesting people I have met, well most of them really. This group is an interesting one, and whilst I miss my old friends I must leave my past behind me and accept those newcomers into my life. I cannot remember many names off the top of my head, but Jacob was the first man I had met, he has an interesting quirk about him and I have to thank him for helping me when I first met him, probably would've been too scared to progress otherwise. After meeting up with the rest of the group in an honestly very puzzling situation, it turns out I was turned in with the others to become a conscript of sorts, except the guys never gave me a weapon, so I had to salvage a couple out myself. Had an electric alien roach as a weapon, named it Sven, of course Jacob gave me the idea of giving it a name, too bad it died not long after I grabbed the sucker.

We fought some giant alien worm thing, no clue what to call it, so I'll just stick with that. Massive adrenaline rush for me and it made the whole thing admittedly quite fun. I felt so cool with Sven by my side, he was a good roach, I'll miss him. Then we go ahead and defeat the worm creature and this glowing Vortigaunt alien thing says something that I can't remember off the top of my head, and we all get transported to a ship which apparently these guys had been stationed on originally. The more you know I guess. But yeah, we had a meeting shortly after, lots of yelling, apparently this 'Wyatt' person got turned into one of the Vortigaunts, but then this man Karl has a disagreement with this other man Alex, yelling ensues, and then it dies down. So yeah, interesting time with these guys so far, hoping that together we can reach wherever our destination is and finally live a somewhat safe life. And as always I shall update this as time goes on.

Spoiler: What I have learnt today.

What I have learnt today:

1. Never trust an alien force that previously invaded your own fucking home planet
2. When stranded in an alien dimension, find company if possible.
3. Trust your instincts when stranded in said alien dimension because if you think something seems off, you're probably right, I mean we're talking about an alien dimension here.
4. Alien weapons can be weird but super fucking cool.
5. Take your chances with any other human you meet, working together is a given at this rate, no one's surviving on their own with a multi-dimensional alien empire on the loose.

 

[Nex]

Point one is debatable. If you would have just trusted the synth boys, we would have just put your suffering to an end and you would be a happy camper. We don't skimp on bullets for executions.

Also, earth had it coming.

Synth squad represent.

 

[Deleted user]

1. Never trust an alien force that previously invaded your own fucking home planet

Point one is debatable. If you would have just trusted the synth boys, we would have just put your suffering to an end and you would be a happy camper. We don't skimp on bullets for executions.

Also, earth had it coming.

Synth squad represent.

Yo what the fu-
but yeah- word

 

[Kawakun]

Tonight has been like most nights aboard this ship, I honestly have no clue whatever to do, and so I simply sit here atop this shipping container noting down my thoughts and feelings as I look out toward the sea. Vast, endless waters surrounding this lonely freighter fill me with a sort of fear, I mean it's just us aboard this ship, far, far away from any civilization, or what's left of it. As I write, two vortigaunts are discussing recent affairs, one of them seemingly being the so-called Wyatt I believe. They currently look out towards the sea, falling silent, it's quite peaceful and tranquilic with the sounds of the ocean and the breeze of the calm winds. I'm beginning to feel better, but I still need to adapt to this whole thing. Most of the other guys and girls are asleep, as for me well, it's hard to sleep, so I just try to calm myself for the nights.

We're heading to Europe. Maybe one day I can finally head back to my home country, but I'm not expecting it to be easy. In fact, it's probably (and quite unfortunately) a death sentence, if this 'Combine' influence is also as big over there that is. All I really care about now though is the safety of myself and those around me, and as I stated before; loneliness is the greatest self-inflicted wound a person can experience nowadays, I would hate to lose everyone I knew, which has already happened once, but if next time when it happens chances are I won't get as lucky as to find another group shortly after, and have to fend for myself. I don't want that. Tonight is more about self-reflectance and the realisation of possible things to come. I don't want to think positively about the future either as to not force my disappointment further upon myself. I mean at this point, we have to be screwed, I have no idea what's truly happening anymore.

Either way, I just want to survive, I want to live. I want to push through and have the pride of saying that I survived this war, althroughout. I know I can do it, I know WE can do it. But anyway, I think I shall end it off here for now, I want to take in the rest of tonight and cherish the fact that I'm still somehow alive. I will protect my own life like it's the most valuable resource on planet Earth.

Nothing to note tonight, just reflection, goodnight.