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Steam Name: Vewoth
SteamID: 76561198045892878
Name of the Admin you were banned by: I don't remember.
How long is the ban for?: Permanent Ban.
The reason you were banned?: 4th ban after 3 previous bans. I don't remember what the 4th ban was for, but my understanding is that a permanent ban normally follows three bans, regardless of the reason.
Why do you wish to be unbanned?: After 6 months, I wanted to appeal the permanent ban, as well as after reading that users can appeal bans again after 1 month. The reason why I'm asking to be unbanned is so that I can rejoin my friends on WN. 6 months ago, I swore on the forums that if my permanent ban appeal was denied, then I would not fight the decision, and also that I would leave the community and delete my forum account to respect the decision. And I did. After half a year, I wanted to submit this post as, essentially, a chance to come back, and for no other reason than to say that I'm sorry for my actions which disrupted a community and server that I really enjoyed, loved, and now respect.
The first time I joined WN was when I was fooling around on Gmod HL2RP servers after getting out of the Army, not thinking I would ever find anything as SeriousRP as the old server I played on back in the 2010s. So, when I joined a random DarkRP server that called itself "Serious," I would just goof around until I got banned or bored. But then I joined WN. However, I didn't know what kind of server it was. I didn't know it was different. Still, I goofed around, climbed the nexus, got on a machine gun, and blew up a Dispatch bot, and was promptly perma banned, which was later adjusted. Of course, I would later become friendly with the poor guy who was playing as that dispatch bot, in addition to whole bunch of other people I would RP and play with on WN. I quickly realized that WN was what I had been looking for when I came back to Gmod after over a decade break from gaming. Yet, after that ban, I enjoyed the people; Unfortunately, though, I still didn't appreciate and respect the server.... its rules and the staff who keep her afloat. I RP'd well and had fun with friends, but still continued to break the rules...multiple times. It wasn't until my permanent ban, and my subsequent deletion of my account, that I concordantly realized what a stone in the rough WN was, and how I was actually being a problem to a place I grew to love, but failed to respect. Consequently, I'm asking for a chance to be with my friends again, with a new respect for WN and a realization of my actions. I'm almost tempted to ask that my ban history be erased so I can completely start new, but I know that's not realistic to ask. Regardless, I do want to start new: not like someone who appealed a ban and won and continued to fight another day, but like I'm playing WN for the first time again, but this time the right way.
Thank you for your time reading this, to whomever currently moderates these appeals. If the appeal is accepted, I swear to you that I will not be disruptive or harmful to this community and the server again, just I swore to leave and respect the perma ban. I will do everything I can to regain the trust of staff. I also want to do my best to get involved in staffing for WN so that I can actually contribute to Willard, rather than make problems as I've done. On the other hand, should the appeal be denied, then I will delete this account and respect that decision again, as I had before. Thank you, honestly, for your consideration.
- Vewoth
Do you have any picture or video evidence to support your reason?: No.
Were there any witnesses who can help in this appeal?: (List the steam and/or character names of them or tag them): No.
EDIT: After coming back to this ban appeal, and thinking about all of this for going on a week since this first posted, I believe I've remembered the specific ban reasons and the admins, in response to the first couple of questions. I normally delete old chats, and I don't hold grudges...then again I was also focusing on life and didn't think to remember about it all for the past half year. Disclaimer - this is all just from my memory, and the accuracy may vary. First ban was mentioned for the reason above with Goose after I minged. Second ban was I believe FailRP related to emotes? Third I believe was also FailRP in the Outlands, just outside the sewer entrance back on the Terminal map before C24. I ran away from the paramilitary combine faction before I gave them a chance to RP. The fourth was for metagaming recruitment for a group I was making. And all those bans happened in a very short period of time.
But what I most remember is my biggest issue. Which was that after every ban, I would take to the forums, kicking and screaming at the admin who banned me, make long arguments, and then drafting these posts to try and fight the ban, even after the appeal was denied! Again, and again, and again. I honestly don't know how Rabit or Mint tolerated me for so long the way I acted, but kudos to them for doing so and remaining poise throughout it. I'm very sorry. That's what I was really talking about in regards to making problems for the server, rather than contributing, in the original post. Even *if* (and it's a big "if" as I understand in retrospect) I was in the right on those bans.... I was very wrong in the way I was going about it. I don't know why I was such a jackass about everything. I apologize to Rabit, Mint, Shimac, and Goose, though I don't know who exactly is all still around and who reads this. But even if my appeal is denied, I can still say that after 6 months, I came back to own up to my mistakes and apologized. I've never been accused of being toxic, hateful or even dishonest, and I can at least say that during my 'bullshittery' that I've never tried twisting an admin's words around, misquoting people, or lying about my version of the events.
So, that's what I think about most after those 6-plus months ago: Regardless of the RP I may or may not have contributed, or the friends I may or may not have made...it's all irrelevant. Because that's all part of the *game*. But here, in real life, I made a hell for some of the admins on the forums, and in the very community I said, then, that I wanted to be apart of. Looking back, I can see that my actions and my words were very disconnected, hypocritical, and not supportive of someone who wanted to contribute to WN. That was my biggest fault. I was so jacked up with wanting to play and with being right, that I was dumb enough to not even realize I was being a problem for actual people, not players, and here in the actual real world forums, and not just on the server, by acting like such a damn child. So, even if this appeal is denied, I can leave here having genuinely apologized to those staff members who I've caused - I'm sure - some stress for. I *am* sorry. If I could go back and change it, I would. But I can't. I can delete the posts, yet I can't take back the fact that I acted like a nuisance, not a supportive player. Yes; If the appeal *is* denied, then I can leave here, not just with that serious apology, though with also having earnestly put my most heartful emotion into this post, and sharing with you this recollection of my memories about my actions on WN - my realizations and my repentance for my faults.
SteamID: 76561198045892878
Name of the Admin you were banned by: I don't remember.
How long is the ban for?: Permanent Ban.
The reason you were banned?: 4th ban after 3 previous bans. I don't remember what the 4th ban was for, but my understanding is that a permanent ban normally follows three bans, regardless of the reason.
Why do you wish to be unbanned?: After 6 months, I wanted to appeal the permanent ban, as well as after reading that users can appeal bans again after 1 month. The reason why I'm asking to be unbanned is so that I can rejoin my friends on WN. 6 months ago, I swore on the forums that if my permanent ban appeal was denied, then I would not fight the decision, and also that I would leave the community and delete my forum account to respect the decision. And I did. After half a year, I wanted to submit this post as, essentially, a chance to come back, and for no other reason than to say that I'm sorry for my actions which disrupted a community and server that I really enjoyed, loved, and now respect.
The first time I joined WN was when I was fooling around on Gmod HL2RP servers after getting out of the Army, not thinking I would ever find anything as SeriousRP as the old server I played on back in the 2010s. So, when I joined a random DarkRP server that called itself "Serious," I would just goof around until I got banned or bored. But then I joined WN. However, I didn't know what kind of server it was. I didn't know it was different. Still, I goofed around, climbed the nexus, got on a machine gun, and blew up a Dispatch bot, and was promptly perma banned, which was later adjusted. Of course, I would later become friendly with the poor guy who was playing as that dispatch bot, in addition to whole bunch of other people I would RP and play with on WN. I quickly realized that WN was what I had been looking for when I came back to Gmod after over a decade break from gaming. Yet, after that ban, I enjoyed the people; Unfortunately, though, I still didn't appreciate and respect the server.... its rules and the staff who keep her afloat. I RP'd well and had fun with friends, but still continued to break the rules...multiple times. It wasn't until my permanent ban, and my subsequent deletion of my account, that I concordantly realized what a stone in the rough WN was, and how I was actually being a problem to a place I grew to love, but failed to respect. Consequently, I'm asking for a chance to be with my friends again, with a new respect for WN and a realization of my actions. I'm almost tempted to ask that my ban history be erased so I can completely start new, but I know that's not realistic to ask. Regardless, I do want to start new: not like someone who appealed a ban and won and continued to fight another day, but like I'm playing WN for the first time again, but this time the right way.
Thank you for your time reading this, to whomever currently moderates these appeals. If the appeal is accepted, I swear to you that I will not be disruptive or harmful to this community and the server again, just I swore to leave and respect the perma ban. I will do everything I can to regain the trust of staff. I also want to do my best to get involved in staffing for WN so that I can actually contribute to Willard, rather than make problems as I've done. On the other hand, should the appeal be denied, then I will delete this account and respect that decision again, as I had before. Thank you, honestly, for your consideration.
- Vewoth
Do you have any picture or video evidence to support your reason?: No.
Were there any witnesses who can help in this appeal?: (List the steam and/or character names of them or tag them): No.
EDIT: After coming back to this ban appeal, and thinking about all of this for going on a week since this first posted, I believe I've remembered the specific ban reasons and the admins, in response to the first couple of questions. I normally delete old chats, and I don't hold grudges...then again I was also focusing on life and didn't think to remember about it all for the past half year. Disclaimer - this is all just from my memory, and the accuracy may vary. First ban was mentioned for the reason above with Goose after I minged. Second ban was I believe FailRP related to emotes? Third I believe was also FailRP in the Outlands, just outside the sewer entrance back on the Terminal map before C24. I ran away from the paramilitary combine faction before I gave them a chance to RP. The fourth was for metagaming recruitment for a group I was making. And all those bans happened in a very short period of time.
But what I most remember is my biggest issue. Which was that after every ban, I would take to the forums, kicking and screaming at the admin who banned me, make long arguments, and then drafting these posts to try and fight the ban, even after the appeal was denied! Again, and again, and again. I honestly don't know how Rabit or Mint tolerated me for so long the way I acted, but kudos to them for doing so and remaining poise throughout it. I'm very sorry. That's what I was really talking about in regards to making problems for the server, rather than contributing, in the original post. Even *if* (and it's a big "if" as I understand in retrospect) I was in the right on those bans.... I was very wrong in the way I was going about it. I don't know why I was such a jackass about everything. I apologize to Rabit, Mint, Shimac, and Goose, though I don't know who exactly is all still around and who reads this. But even if my appeal is denied, I can still say that after 6 months, I came back to own up to my mistakes and apologized. I've never been accused of being toxic, hateful or even dishonest, and I can at least say that during my 'bullshittery' that I've never tried twisting an admin's words around, misquoting people, or lying about my version of the events.
So, that's what I think about most after those 6-plus months ago: Regardless of the RP I may or may not have contributed, or the friends I may or may not have made...it's all irrelevant. Because that's all part of the *game*. But here, in real life, I made a hell for some of the admins on the forums, and in the very community I said, then, that I wanted to be apart of. Looking back, I can see that my actions and my words were very disconnected, hypocritical, and not supportive of someone who wanted to contribute to WN. That was my biggest fault. I was so jacked up with wanting to play and with being right, that I was dumb enough to not even realize I was being a problem for actual people, not players, and here in the actual real world forums, and not just on the server, by acting like such a damn child. So, even if this appeal is denied, I can leave here having genuinely apologized to those staff members who I've caused - I'm sure - some stress for. I *am* sorry. If I could go back and change it, I would. But I can't. I can delete the posts, yet I can't take back the fact that I acted like a nuisance, not a supportive player. Yes; If the appeal *is* denied, then I can leave here, not just with that serious apology, though with also having earnestly put my most heartful emotion into this post, and sharing with you this recollection of my memories about my actions on WN - my realizations and my repentance for my faults.
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