Bluerrey
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Act I
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ACT II
Steam Name: Bluerrey
SteamID: I am not sure how to get SteamID
Name of the Admin you were banned by: @RedHotGinger
How long is the ban for?: Permannet
The reason you were banned?: "Stealing kevlar from admin-locked BMD container, using OOC gained password. Ignoring Fear RP. LOOC stalling. We have given you more chances than we can count."
Why do you wish to be unbanned?:
It's not very easy for me to make this appeal right now, and I'm sure it isn't easy for whoever is reading this right now. I've come forward with this appeal today because I feel like I owe some of you an explanation or context towards these situations that I've got myself involved in and perhaps get a larger picture of the situations for those who review it. I'll be going trough each of the reason I'm banned and try to explain within my best ability.
I feel like I've probably disappointed most of you or at least those who have known me for a while and those who at first gave me a second chance, and in first place I've failed myself for being able to keep up the word I promised. The amount of trust I've lost is most likely never going to be refilled in my entire life, which I completly understand, I'm not really here today to try and get unbanned, but rather more to give some context behind what happened.
I'm honestly not really sure where to start or what to say at all, I'd never imagine I could be so foolish enough to get myself banned like that but here we are.
Stealing kevlar from admin-locked BMD container, using OOC gained password. - I'm not really sure where to start with this, but in my brief conversation I had with Steyrshotgun it was mentioned that during my first ban appeal it was once said that I shouldn't have gotten the password at all and that the containers should have been removed by a CM 2 weeks ago, to which I've completly missed. The reply I've been given was open only briefly and after it was locked I could no longer watch the thread. I don't know how to explain this, but I had genuinely no idea that I wasn't allowed to use these containers.
I have been using the containers for more than one month now and I've never been personally confronted about it only once in my life during my first appeal that has gotten locked within few minutes after I've read the posts. I did pick up 2 kevlars from the container that were meant to be going towards those who had recently been NLR'd without refunds to compensate for their losses, I did this because I prefer my own fault at the expense of others. I know that 2 players have already stopped playing the server because of this because people are depenant on scripts for some reason, but I'm not, the kevlars were not meant for my personal gain at all.
That doesn't change anything to the fact that what I did was wrong, I did so unknowling. I've always been the type of player not to complain about anything going on around me no matter what it was. I'm not the smartest tool in the shed to realise I'd have to ask for permission to do something I've been doing for more than a month without problems, and that's my flaw that I'm trying to work on improving.
Ignoring FearRP - This situation is refering towards the OTA attack that has happened in the seweres. Where I've found myself in the presence of rebels trying to ambush a OTA squad, I don't know what has gotten trough my mind back then, I saw OTA walk up the stairs and instantly thought that all those 12 players involved are going to be PK'd. I kept hearing every single day that people are just going to abandon the server (happened anyway) once they either get PKed or loose all their gear, and when I had the chance to at least somewhat prevent this, I took my chances and stood in front of the OTA so he wouldn't get clear shot. I wasn't armed, I got engaged into TBC but all I did was try and help the rebels within position. Once again, not something that should be excused at all, I'm not saying I should be forgotten, but it's a context of the situation. I realise I shouldn't have done that, and after I've been kicked from the server because of this I've personally apologized to both Fedora and Ginger for messing up over the steam chat, I've never intended to get myself banned, I'm not here to test anyone, I'm not here to disobey the rules, I'm not any sort of minge who goes around "lulz xDd!" and only intends to hurt the server or the community.
LOOC stalling - This situation I'm not entirely sure about. It happened during my second day on the server after I've been unbanned and I've already found myself in a situation where I've been ICly confronted by 2 officers that had originally intended on PK'ing my character. I'm not sure what exactly is this being inteded towards, because the only LOOC stalling that I recall could be me asking for the technicalilties of a chance. I've been returned to RP situation after successfully escaping from the Union's hands to which I've been told I cannot do without waiting for a reaction, another time I've been straight up told I can just run if I RP running away from a CP units, I was slightly confused about it. At the end I apologized to @Phoenix personally for spiking such a mess out of the situation and he said not to worry about it and that it's fine.
As mentioned previously. I've been advised to waiting a bit before making my appeal, to which I did, I've spent the time trying my best to have a thought over what has led to this point, what I've done wrong, where I've failed and put the time I've spent into making this appeal at least somewhat an entertaining experience for those who review it.
I'm honestly not sure what to say besides sorry, I try to fix to prove everyone that I can do better. I didn't get banned because of my own self-gain or because I did it for funny laughs, I didn't. I've been banned for doing what's in my nature, trying to save what has been built by me during the moment the server has launched, and that is rebelRP. I don't know why I had chosen to put other player's fun above my own, I've always rather chose to sacrifice my own fun in expanse of someone else's, but this is just not the way I should have done it. I feel like I've failed those who I've tried to provide fun for, or not, I really don't know.
I don't expect any sympathy at all, I don't expect to see back the trust I've ruined with my actions that I've done, but what I can expect is to not only look at the wrong doings I've done, but at least some of the good things that have happened, if anything.
How can you put trust into me again not to do it again? - I'm honestly not sure. My nature has always been straight forward, I've never tried to lie or bypass anything to get around. If I genuinely knew about the containers, I'd have asked to have them removed. I've done it previously during beta, If there was any flaw in the game that I was aware of I've always spoke about it with Atle.
I've essentially dug my own grave at this point, and the chances of that trust being regained is borderline impossible, I didn't do any of the reasons I'm banned now on purpose, I've tried to avoid getting into troubles, I was scared shitless of having to be in this situation and I certainly did never intended for this to happen. I'm for certainly sure that I've not hurt anyone, but that doesn't excuse the fact that I could have percieved my goals in trying to provide fun for others in a much better approach than what I did, there is no doubt on that, and for that I can only apologize and try to improve in the future.
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EPILOG
I feel like even if I was to be allowed back on the server, I'd have to be guided by my friends to what I can and what I cannot do before I do something. I don't know how to explain this. I shouldn't even mention this at all, but during the time when my shenenighans was going on, I wasn't really in the best codition mentally and I feel like it had taken some role in what happen, or maybe not. I honestly just want to forget about everything that had happened. I was playing Willard to provide fun for others rather than myself. There is no denying in the fact that RebelRP and Bottlestreet had went to crap after I got banned, no, this is not just my saying, it has been said by numerous of players.
Before I conclude this, I'd just like to say that If I don't get my last chance at redemption, then it was a great time I've had on the Willard server, I've met a lot of great people in my time that I've been here and thank you for everything, I hope whoever reads it to this point has a nice day. I have taken @Atle's advice to heart, I wanted to show admins that I can keep up to my word and that I can do better than what I've shown so far. I went quiet for more than 3 weeks now, I can follow the rules and I know what to do now to prove myself to be a normal player just like anyone else. Thank you.
Explanation for the Story Driven Appeal: I wanted to make this appeal at least slightly enjoyable for those who read it. I want to show people that I still have passion for Willard and want to make people laugh or have fun and I thought this might cheer someone up just like with my first video I've made. I'm sorry if it isn't appropriate, but at this point I just want to do what I've tried best and that is to make people have fun.
Do you have any picture or video evidence to support your reason?: I don't think so...
Were there any witnesses who can help in this appeal?: (List the steam and/or character names of them or tag them)
Name of the Admin you were banned by: @RedHotGinger
How long is the ban for?: Permannet
The reason you were banned?: "Stealing kevlar from admin-locked BMD container, using OOC gained password. Ignoring Fear RP. LOOC stalling. We have given you more chances than we can count."
Why do you wish to be unbanned?:
It's not very easy for me to make this appeal right now, and I'm sure it isn't easy for whoever is reading this right now. I've come forward with this appeal today because I feel like I owe some of you an explanation or context towards these situations that I've got myself involved in and perhaps get a larger picture of the situations for those who review it. I'll be going trough each of the reason I'm banned and try to explain within my best ability.
I feel like I've probably disappointed most of you or at least those who have known me for a while and those who at first gave me a second chance, and in first place I've failed myself for being able to keep up the word I promised. The amount of trust I've lost is most likely never going to be refilled in my entire life, which I completly understand, I'm not really here today to try and get unbanned, but rather more to give some context behind what happened.
I'm honestly not really sure where to start or what to say at all, I'd never imagine I could be so foolish enough to get myself banned like that but here we are.
Stealing kevlar from admin-locked BMD container, using OOC gained password. - I'm not really sure where to start with this, but in my brief conversation I had with Steyrshotgun it was mentioned that during my first ban appeal it was once said that I shouldn't have gotten the password at all and that the containers should have been removed by a CM 2 weeks ago, to which I've completly missed. The reply I've been given was open only briefly and after it was locked I could no longer watch the thread. I don't know how to explain this, but I had genuinely no idea that I wasn't allowed to use these containers.
I have been using the containers for more than one month now and I've never been personally confronted about it only once in my life during my first appeal that has gotten locked within few minutes after I've read the posts. I did pick up 2 kevlars from the container that were meant to be going towards those who had recently been NLR'd without refunds to compensate for their losses, I did this because I prefer my own fault at the expense of others. I know that 2 players have already stopped playing the server because of this because people are depenant on scripts for some reason, but I'm not, the kevlars were not meant for my personal gain at all.
That doesn't change anything to the fact that what I did was wrong, I did so unknowling. I've always been the type of player not to complain about anything going on around me no matter what it was. I'm not the smartest tool in the shed to realise I'd have to ask for permission to do something I've been doing for more than a month without problems, and that's my flaw that I'm trying to work on improving.
Ignoring FearRP - This situation is refering towards the OTA attack that has happened in the seweres. Where I've found myself in the presence of rebels trying to ambush a OTA squad, I don't know what has gotten trough my mind back then, I saw OTA walk up the stairs and instantly thought that all those 12 players involved are going to be PK'd. I kept hearing every single day that people are just going to abandon the server (happened anyway) once they either get PKed or loose all their gear, and when I had the chance to at least somewhat prevent this, I took my chances and stood in front of the OTA so he wouldn't get clear shot. I wasn't armed, I got engaged into TBC but all I did was try and help the rebels within position. Once again, not something that should be excused at all, I'm not saying I should be forgotten, but it's a context of the situation. I realise I shouldn't have done that, and after I've been kicked from the server because of this I've personally apologized to both Fedora and Ginger for messing up over the steam chat, I've never intended to get myself banned, I'm not here to test anyone, I'm not here to disobey the rules, I'm not any sort of minge who goes around "lulz xDd!" and only intends to hurt the server or the community.
LOOC stalling - This situation I'm not entirely sure about. It happened during my second day on the server after I've been unbanned and I've already found myself in a situation where I've been ICly confronted by 2 officers that had originally intended on PK'ing my character. I'm not sure what exactly is this being inteded towards, because the only LOOC stalling that I recall could be me asking for the technicalilties of a chance. I've been returned to RP situation after successfully escaping from the Union's hands to which I've been told I cannot do without waiting for a reaction, another time I've been straight up told I can just run if I RP running away from a CP units, I was slightly confused about it. At the end I apologized to @Phoenix personally for spiking such a mess out of the situation and he said not to worry about it and that it's fine.
As mentioned previously. I've been advised to waiting a bit before making my appeal, to which I did, I've spent the time trying my best to have a thought over what has led to this point, what I've done wrong, where I've failed and put the time I've spent into making this appeal at least somewhat an entertaining experience for those who review it.
I'm honestly not sure what to say besides sorry, I try to fix to prove everyone that I can do better. I didn't get banned because of my own self-gain or because I did it for funny laughs, I didn't. I've been banned for doing what's in my nature, trying to save what has been built by me during the moment the server has launched, and that is rebelRP. I don't know why I had chosen to put other player's fun above my own, I've always rather chose to sacrifice my own fun in expanse of someone else's, but this is just not the way I should have done it. I feel like I've failed those who I've tried to provide fun for, or not, I really don't know.
I don't expect any sympathy at all, I don't expect to see back the trust I've ruined with my actions that I've done, but what I can expect is to not only look at the wrong doings I've done, but at least some of the good things that have happened, if anything.
How can you put trust into me again not to do it again? - I'm honestly not sure. My nature has always been straight forward, I've never tried to lie or bypass anything to get around. If I genuinely knew about the containers, I'd have asked to have them removed. I've done it previously during beta, If there was any flaw in the game that I was aware of I've always spoke about it with Atle.
I've essentially dug my own grave at this point, and the chances of that trust being regained is borderline impossible, I didn't do any of the reasons I'm banned now on purpose, I've tried to avoid getting into troubles, I was scared shitless of having to be in this situation and I certainly did never intended for this to happen. I'm for certainly sure that I've not hurt anyone, but that doesn't excuse the fact that I could have percieved my goals in trying to provide fun for others in a much better approach than what I did, there is no doubt on that, and for that I can only apologize and try to improve in the future.
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EPILOG
I feel like even if I was to be allowed back on the server, I'd have to be guided by my friends to what I can and what I cannot do before I do something. I don't know how to explain this. I shouldn't even mention this at all, but during the time when my shenenighans was going on, I wasn't really in the best codition mentally and I feel like it had taken some role in what happen, or maybe not. I honestly just want to forget about everything that had happened. I was playing Willard to provide fun for others rather than myself. There is no denying in the fact that RebelRP and Bottlestreet had went to crap after I got banned, no, this is not just my saying, it has been said by numerous of players.
Before I conclude this, I'd just like to say that If I don't get my last chance at redemption, then it was a great time I've had on the Willard server, I've met a lot of great people in my time that I've been here and thank you for everything, I hope whoever reads it to this point has a nice day. I have taken @Atle's advice to heart, I wanted to show admins that I can keep up to my word and that I can do better than what I've shown so far. I went quiet for more than 3 weeks now, I can follow the rules and I know what to do now to prove myself to be a normal player just like anyone else. Thank you.
Explanation for the Story Driven Appeal: I wanted to make this appeal at least slightly enjoyable for those who read it. I want to show people that I still have passion for Willard and want to make people laugh or have fun and I thought this might cheer someone up just like with my first video I've made. I'm sorry if it isn't appropriate, but at this point I just want to do what I've tried best and that is to make people have fun.
Do you have any picture or video evidence to support your reason?: I don't think so...
Were there any witnesses who can help in this appeal?: (List the steam and/or character names of them or tag them)
